I’ve been making decisions this last week about the near future – what I want to be doing right now, etc. I went and signed paperwork to take a 6 month leave of absence from uni, I’ve applied for jobs, on Wednesday I have an interview for a job which I am very excited about. I’ve also found out I have some problems with my left foot that needs sorting out. That I need to slow down. Rest. Let my body heal properly.
The last two years, throughout my treatment and recovery, I’ve been constantly told to slow down. How funny that as I begin to truly feel that I am healing, do I heed this advice and take some time to focus on me. That I allow myself to take 6 months off from my course without reprimanding what it might do to the image I have of myself, that I am not doing things the way I had planned.
So this week, I find myself feeling grateful for the opportunity to see that it is okay to slow down, and for my dean being so supportive of this. She acknowledged my anxiety and sat with me to map out the rest of my course after this leave, to show me that it’s not going to make a huge difference. I’m grateful for kind words of advice and support, for friends telling me that by looking after myself in this time I am allowing myself to become a better nurse.
And then there’s the smaller things. I’m stressed about finances at the moment. Worried I’m not quite going to make ends meet this month. This evening I went for a walk across town and as I passed a young person on the street, settling in for the evening in the only shade they could find, I am grateful that I have a home to retreat to, a fan to lie under and a network of friends to complain about this heatwave to. My thoughts wander to those who aren’t as lucky as me right now, the victims of the bushfires, those without a home, and I send them a gentle wish that they stay safe, or find comfort, and the universe sends some kindness their way.
What do you have to be grateful for this week? Have you come across something that’s made you aware of your blessings, grateful for something you’ve previously taken for granted?